prayer journal 2

Dear God, the grief that ultimately brought me down to my knees is not losing a human being I loved. It’s losing my baby Snowy.

I go about my daily existence with the heaviest heart. My dearest baby, how I struggle not to think of you every minute of the day.

She’s now in your kingdom. All I ask is that you take very good care of her. Please make her feel how much I still love her.

Journal Prayer 1

Dear Lord, I am in deep despair. I miss my Snowy. I don’t know what to ask from you. Because I love her so much and I wouldn’t want to forget her. Yet the pain of losing her and missing her is way too much. I feel at lost. Please help me.

What I’d give to be able to touch her and be with her again.

My independence day

Today it is. Finally free of Chris. It should’ve happened sooner yet I held on — for a few varied reasons.

I couldn’t take it anymore. I wanted true love, fidelity, exclusivity, total consideration of my feelings and a future with him. He demonstrated he could hardly provide me with those.

A waste of my time, affection, emotions? You could say that. But I’m not that regretful. There’s a good feeling that could emerge out of knowing you left someone a much better person.

But, boy, am I glad it’s finally over.